GOD TOLD ME TO FORGIVE BUT I DONT WANT TO. GOD TOLD ME TO FORGIVE BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF ME THAT IS A SCARED, ANGRY ANIMAL, AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE REASON. I DESERVE TO GO TO HELL FOR THIS AND I DO NOT FUCKING CARE. I HOPE WHEN YOU DIE, IT HURTS. I HOPE YOU END UP IN HELL WITH ME FOR DOING THIS TO ME. I HOPE THERE ARE PARTS OF YOU THAT NEVER STOP EXPERIENCING THE AGONY I INFLICT ON YOU WHEN I FINALLY GET THE STRENGTH TO SHOW YOU HOW MISERABLE YOUR EXISTENCE IS. I DESERVED PROTECTION FROM YOU. I DESERVED A LIFE OF PEACE. I DESERVED TO BE A PERSON, NOT A MONSTER. AND THE WORST PART IS, I KNOW IF YOU CARED, YOU WOULD HAVE SHOWN IT BY NOW.